Monochromatic
If I told you I was depressed,
Will you believe me?
That the laughing emoji
Was my resort
Because I wish that was me
That I’ll be as yellow as it
And be as positive as its tears
Not that my English sucks
But I share these memes
Because when you smile
It puts a light through the sadness
And I feel someone is in it too,
Your laughter makes the demons mad,
Because for a brief moment
They don’t have the strings anymore
They don’t force that plastic smile
I am at a loss for words
If I told you my thoughts are Suicidal will you understand?
That life is Torturous
And even for a masochist, it hits too darn hard!
That its bruises leave me aching for years
And the hollowness is more than a nine-inch cock impaling me!
The pitter patter of the cold shower
Washes even my soul
And sometimes I want to keep me frozen
How the water holds me;
Tearing the demons away from my body
And embracing me
I want to get lost in it.
If I tell you when I see you smile
I get jealous
That you can have something so genuine
And that I can’t steal that from you
And I want that warmth too
Or maybe I am just an attention seeker
Saying all of these
With tear-stained face
And pills ready to be popped
Maybe I don’t want forever
I want now
But now is grey
Maybe I’ll smile for once
Even if it’s my demons winning
I will be at peace
